jealousy kills relationships. the anger and rage starts from deep within, rises up your body and takes over your every thought and move. but why? is taking a harmless picture really that bad? is having friends of the opposite sex really that bad? no. to be in a mature relationship someone should not have to change their whole life and who they are. you need to look at every scenario from both sides and understand where each other are coming from. you should embrace each other for both the good and the bad. as long as you are honest, honest on all accounts and have a passionate love, nothing else matters. 

so now what? all the posts, blogs, and rants i have posted on here make me look crazy, but really i could care less. i have learned more about myself in the past year then i thought possible. i learned that i may be too trusting, too accepting, and too loving at times. but know what, that’s me and i wouldn’t change that for anything.

with my current situation i was going back and forth, questioning am i ready to be facebook official again? looking back i couldn’t be more stupid. why should facebook matter? why should what people have to say, whether they “like” the posts, talk shit or love the posts, it doesn’t really matter to me. i have let go of all the bullshit from the past and embraced the good. why focus on a few faults when there is so much to smile about? so for now, what am i? i am happy. i am happy with my man and happy where we are at. i know this summer isn’t going to be easy, and there will be nights when i cry myself to sleep, nights where i want nothing more then to lay in your arms, but i know the moments when i do actually see you they will be that much sweeter, and that much better.